The shark... It's weeping.

Welp, I'm officially heading back to new mexico on the 19th to get my GED and (hopefully) pull my life together. I'm genuinely happy for once. Virginia, weirdly enough, has actually taught me a few things. Mostly that I can no longer take drugs/drink as much/often as I used to. But it also taught me a few coping mechanisms that should come in handy when I get back.
COPING MECHANISM 1: If certain people bother you or hinder you in any way, you can simply cut them out of your life completely. Ignoring their existence is really the key.
COPING MECHANISM 2: If you feel yourself slipping into a depression; A. Understand that it will pass, and B. Take a day, or a few hours, out of your schedule to do jack shit. Just sit around and watch House or some other show and you will feel 10 times better.


This post feels strangely upbeat.

This Year - The Mountain Goats

lol oops

New to do list;
- Start illustration
- Get a hair cut
- Go to florida
- Get more cigarettes
- Start running in the morning
- Get my GED
- Sort my fucking life out

This is working out. Holy shit.

lol depression

Do I attract you?
Do I repulse you with my queasy smile?
Am I too dirty? Am I too flirty?
Do I like what you like?

Yeah, I could be wholesome
I could be loathsome
I guess I'm a little bit shy
Why don't you like me?
Why don't you like me without making me try?

I'm breaking up with all of you.

This fanfic

makes me horny all the time. ;_;

SO MUCH SEX SO LITTLE CONTENT.

I'm writing more sex scenes then actual plot line. It's kind of upsetting me.
I went to a party last night. It was alright I won't lie. I need more alcohol. I forgot how much more sociable it made me. :3

Bruises - Chairlift
<3

Masturbating on certain drugs

does not work. (More specifically Oxycontin) TRUE FACT.
Yes it's 4 in the morning. What happened to the time? I spent most of the night listening to a hypnosis/trance recording. I'd say it was fairly successful in that I was put in a trance like state. But was less succesful in that it did not make me have a hands free orgasm.


I'm making a fanfic about everyone I know for purplelanterncorps <3
If I know you, you're probably going to be in this having sex with someone.

Can't Come Quickly - Scissor Sisters

Wait,

what the fuck happened today?
I am truly and honestly for seriously tired for once.



Bees - Caribou

Todays attempt at style

Mt. Fuji bandanna, White Chapel shirt "fucked and left for dead", Ben Sherman long sleeve shirt I cut open, American Apparel pants, and Android watch. I'm gay I know, you don't have to tell me.

I'm not really sure

how it's possible. But I just flash back-ed so hard I almost threw up.
Somehow, in the middle of falling asleep (Hypnagogia) I suddenly remembered a time when I was intensely drunk and possibly at the point of alcohol poisoning. I could smell my disgusting whiskey/tequila mixed drink that I made with Kim and Gabby and some other kid.
Good god.
Something is wrong with me.

In This World - Moby

SIGH

Where art thou stonerfags?

I listened to all of The Antlers' Hospice today. It was pretty fantastic. I suggest listening to it if you're a depressed lonely asshole like me.

Summary of Hellraiser, by me.

[15:26] ChumMordecai: like the plot is fucked from the begining
[15:26] ChumMordecai: this guy
[15:26] ChumMordecai: opens this box
[15:26] ChumMordecai: and he dies
[15:26] ChumMordecai: but he comes back
[15:26] ChumMordecai: and this other guys wife brings him people to eat
[15:27] ChumMordecai: so he can have skin?
[15:27] ChumMordecai: and so I guess he got away from these cenobite things
[15:27] ChumMordecai: which are like
[15:27] ChumMordecai: the bdsm faggots that show you the WORLDS GREATEST PAINS AND PLEASURES LOL
[15:27] ChumMordecai: and so they like take you to hell or something
[15:27] ChumMordecai: but this guy got out
[15:28] ChumMordecai: and so that ladies daughter
[15:28] ChumMordecai: gets the box
[15:28] ChumMordecai: and like the cenobites come
[15:28] ChumMordecai: and are like BITCH WE GONNA FUCK YOU UP
[15:28] ChumMordecai: and she flips out and is like FRANK GOT AWAY I'LL SHOW YOUUUUUUUU
[15:28] ChumMordecai: so they're like
[15:28] ChumMordecai: ok, but we may still fuck you up if we feel like it
[15:28] ChumMordecai: and then she goes to the guy that eats people
[15:29] ChumMordecai: and he's like SUP IT'S UNCLE FRANK I'M GONNA RAPE YOU AND KILL YOU
[15:29] trollantrollan: ...this sounds fascinating on cough syrup and weed
[15:29] trollantrollan: lil bit of cough syrup of course
[15:29] trollantrollan: how do i extract DXM is the real question
[15:30] ChumMordecai: and then the cenobites are like FUCK YOU MAN and then rip him apart but as his face is being ripped apart he's like "jesus wept lololol" and then licks his lips and explodes
[15:30] ChumMordecai: and then they're like OH SHIT BITCH WE'RE STILL GONNA FUCK YOU UP GOOD
[15:30] ChumMordecai: and she's like fuck and makes the box suck them up
[15:30] ChumMordecai: or something like that
[15:30] ChumMordecai: and then like her and her boyfriend are standing over the burned house
[15:30] ChumMordecai: and a fucking skeleton birds takes the box and flies away
[15:31] ChumMordecai: and it's like
[15:31] ChumMordecai: LOL THE END
[15:31] trollantrollan: damn you ruined it for me
[15:31] ChumMordecai: that's my summary of hellraiser
[15:31] ChumMordecai: I know sorry
[15:31] ChumMordecai: it would've probably been better high
[15:32] trollantrollan: lol
[15:32] trollantrollan: what isn't?
[15:32] ChumMordecai: true that nigga

Nocturne #2 in E flat

Gots me some dat sweet insomnia.
BABY GURL I IS FALLIN' APART.
Can you feel my heart explode?

An /r9k/ post

Original Post:
Dear /r9k/
I know I'm a fucking faggot for posting this, but I don't care because I'm going fucking nuts.
So I just moved to Arlington Virginia and I've met literally no one that isn't fucking retarded. So I'm wondering if there's any Arlington VAfags lurking around. Where do I go? What is there to do? This place is making me insane, please help.
Signed, Mentally collapsing awkward drunk.

Responses:
- i know a cool girl with big tits in virginia beach

- Sorry, brah. I live in Southern MD and I'm gonna be gone anyway (joining the Army).

- >I've met literally no one that isn't fucking retarded
Welcome to Virginia!

>Where do I go? What is there to do?
If you like music, there's plenty of venues around:
Jaxx Springfield - Metal shit
The Black Cat - Indie/Alternative/Electro
930 Club - Everything
Rock N Roll Hotel - Indie/Alternative
The State Theatre - Dad Rock

I live in Fairfax County and all my friends are idiots. By correlation, I am an idiot too. Hope you enjoy your stay!

- >just not give a fuck about politics
Welcome to the greater DC area, brah. All of my friends who got jobs there still drive out on the weekends to come see the rest of us because everyone and everything near DC is so shitty. If you're going to uni, you might be lucky enough to meet an actual human, but you're better off toughing it out til graduation and moving to new england.

- Most of them work government or contractor jobs, so they have to be (mostly) sober during the week. There's a lot of WOW and TF2 so we can talk and play M-F. There's a nightlife in DC, but you have to deal with the same douchebags, so they get drunk with us further south in richmond on weekends. Seriously, DC is where we went to party when we were in high school. Its a lot less cool now that we can buy alcohol on our own.

As for during the week, I had friends get into psych meds, legal highs (klonopin), religion, and one became super work-out guy. DC is one of the top 10 lonliest cities cities, and being there too long bugs you out. Take trips.

Bats Over the Pacific Ocean - Jaguar Love

Dextroamphetamine

Well fuck, since no one else seems to have any input on what I was like a few months ago, here's Dan Dan's take.

Dan Dan: everyone thinks you're still crazy as fuck
Dan Dan: or at least
Dan Dan: they definitely thought you were like literally insane and fucked up when you were on adderall
Dan Dan: and you did do some weird shit
Dan Dan: like blast rolling stones techno remixes and like burned yourself with a cigarette or something like that
Dan Dan: got like addicted to adderall
Me: lol how did I act?
Me: like differently?
Dan Dan: you really seemed fine to me
Me: I thought I was the same
Dan Dan: although sometimes you would be more twitchy i guess?
Dan Dan: it really didn't seem that weird to me

If anyone reading this has any thoughts or statements, feel free to comment this and I'll edit it later.

Fragment One (Style Of Eye Remix) - Kenneth Bager

Collage

I'm going through old magazines of mine. Cutting out little articles and pictures for English class. I've printed out pictures of my friends. Of places I used to go. They wanted to know where I come from. And I'll tell them I'm going back. I swear I am.


In Lidda, in Ramla, in the Galilee,
we shall remain
like a wall upon your chest,
and in your throat
like a shard of glass,
a cactus thorn,
and in your eyes
a sandstorm.

We shall remain
a wall upon your chest,
clean dishes in your restaurants,
serve drinks in your bars,
sweep the floors of your kitchens
to snatch a bite for our children
from your blue fangs.

Here we shall stay,
sing our songs,
take to the angry streets,
fill prisons with dignity.

In Lidda, in Ramla, in the Galilee,
we shall remain,
gaurd the shade of the fig
and olive trees,
ferment rebellion in our children
as yeast in the dough. - Tawfiq Zayyad

One time, at band camp.

The police thought I was soliciting girls online for sex.

New posts with actual substance... Eventually.

FUCK YOU GUYS

I KNEW IT WAS REAL.
http://www.cetaphobia.com
FEAR OF FUCKING WHALES.
"more common than you might think"
God, why do I feel so good about this? Thank you Dresden Codak, for making me more of a real person then I could ever be on my own.

I said Shit goddamn!

2 days before school starts and it's 4 in the morning. WOOH! Off to a good start. I've met a few of my classmates at a barbecue the neighborhood held. One of them is an alleged rapper and the other enjoys such metal as Slipknot. An awful fear of the future has gripped me over the past few days. Increasing anger and crushing depression don't make the sun look to bright either do it?

On a happier note;
- Our shower looks like it's for rich douche bags. Not that I'm complaining. (But seriously what the fuck do I do with 4 shower heads?)
- Savannah can control bitches with her mind.
- Jeff is NOT a virgin anymore.
- I'm getting exercise again.
- And my computer has space on it now. (High five for accidentally deleting ALL of my porn!)

Well that's all for now kids, but remember, tune in next week for more wacky shenanigans!

Today's song is;
"We Have Reached An Official Verdict: Nobody Gives A Shit - The Locust"

THE START OF MISS AYANO CHUZENJI'S SEXUAL WOES

More like, the start of how much my life is going to fucking suck.
I got back to Santa Fe yesterday from "running away." Which consisted of living out of my back pack and sleeping at savannah's. Nothing was really accomplished other then getting high, hanging out with people, and getting joshes hand rail ripped out of the wall.

An awkward side note.

After lurking imdb I found my dad worked on this piece of magic.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=0QDIK6zkSTo

Dad since you probably still lurk my blogs, I just want you to know, I'm proud.

Wacky Japan PART 2

NATTO AND EGG


Shit's so not cash.

Expansion; I now have some kind of flu.

Wacky Japan PART 1

Green Tea Coca Cola - Cleans out the toxins, according to the bottle.

Shamwow in Japanese - Complete with Steve Schlomi.

Ice cream in a balloon - This is, put lightly, hard to eat.

Donkey Surprise - Is actually nothing like a donkey punch. It's a restaurant like McDonalds, but with meatloaf. And school girls. I think I'm in love.

TV channel encompassing all 90's television shows. - I'm currently watching Even Stevens.

(Donkey Surprise menu is a pair of giant wooden folding doors. Why? As my cousin put it, "Why does chili's or applebee's have any of that shit on the ceiling?" Good answer.)

Hard shit, bangin' shit, what we do best.

FUN FACTS ABOUT ME.
- All of my friends have, at some point, thought I might kill them.
- I'm on the last episode of Spaced and this GREATLY depresses me.
- Art blah blah blah. My brain is working again. Therefore I can draw.
- I don't think I can drink anymore. Or maybe it's like New Years, "This is the drunkest I've ever been." when I got alcohol poisoning. A break is needed perhaps?
- Sex on the internet.

Arlington Virginia

"A diverse, inclusive, world-class urban community."

The idiocy of climbing onto our roof is hitting me. I realize now that it’s intensely difficult to sit at a slanted angle while typing and smoking. I haven’t spoken more the two words to anyone. And all of them in D.C. This town seems to lack that charming filthiness that Albuquerque had.
Upon reading about amphetamines I realize how badly I miss being high ALL THE TIME. Adderall - Well speed is, what I can only describe as, godly. Every move perfected, everything with purpose. I miss it dearly. I miss it now especially, I could clean for literally hours and not get bored. Now I almost feel bad for tricking my psychologist.

"You like D&D, Audrey Hepburn, Fangoria, Harry Houdini, and croquet. You can’t swim, you can’t dance, and you don’t know karate. Face it, you’re never gonna make it."